Church of Insanity

Black. White.

2006-03-30T03:52:39Z

Okay so the white father is an accidental rascist and an ignorant FOOL!
The white mother is kinda getting it now but still has a way to go...
And the white girl I think has got the best idea out of anyone in the house, but I haven't seen much if any of the black parents dressed as white.
At any rate I hope the mother leaves the father because he is what he is and I know if I was her I couldn't live with a man like that. HE completely refuses to see the invisible ceiling that he's standing on. (cause he's on the good side) As a women I can kinda understand (not completely of course) the frustration of the black community, I feel the ignorance of well off white men when I try to make them respect me as an intelligent human being and not some dumb broad.
White men just don't understand because they don't want to admit that they just might have it easier

(MY COMMENTS ON THE TV SHOW AND IF YOU HAVE CONSTRUCTIVE VIEWS AND NOT BASHING PLEASE COMMENT. BUT IF YOU CAN'T CONTAIN THE STUPIDITY THEN WRITE IN YOUR OWN JOURNAL. IT'S MY OPINION AND EVERYONE HAS ONE. PLEASE RESPECT MINE)

um yea so

2006-03-04T03:55:40Z

I need my own space....
is that SOO hard of a concept to understand...

::cough wheeze::

2006-02-21T04:20:07Z

So now my virus got lonely so it invited a bacteria and now I get to take LOVELY antibiotics that are tearing up my stomach.
Moved the GRE's to the 15th of march so I have SOME chance of scoring decently.
Still VERY VERY busy, will be around in a couple months...

Really Sick

2006-02-14T02:54:41Z

Really stressed and I haven't checked LJ in months sorry I'm SOOOO busy
I decided to apply to grad school so now I have 4 midterms, 3 4 page papers, and the GRE's to take right after I wrap up the other things on the 24th.
I'm sick with bronchitis and really busy it's not that I don't care it's that I can't care about anything but getting through the next two weeks.
Thanks ::passes out asleep::

W00+!!!

2006-01-16T02:51:07Z

April 15th NJ is SMOKE FREE!!!!! yay! (well except for casinos because donald own trenton..) I can drink without getting lung cancer, and eat without tasting ash!!!!
I have the right to NOT breath smoke, but if I CHOOSE to inhale smoke I DO NOT have the right to make someone else inhale it too!
Smokers stop pissing and moaning and go outside, at least this isn't California where you can only smoke out in DESIGNATED outdoor smoking areas. Yep I saw it myself they have no smoking signs painted on the ground there and hefty fines for those who don't obey. You have the right to give yourself lung cancer, but you DON'T have the right to give anyone else lung cancer!

I think I figured out...

2006-01-15T16:51:52Z

Why I'm so bleh and not feeling well...
I think I'm bleh and not feeling well because I never have anyone to go out and do things with anymore...
I don't go out in do things because I'm lonely and then when I don't go out I start feeling crappy to rationalize why I don't go out (most anyway, sometimes a migraine just zaps the life out of me)
I'm tired of being alone, I live with my boyfriend and I'm still alone. FUCK IT ALL I need people who want to hang out with me :-( apparantly my bf doesn't

mm blood

2006-01-14T03:36:38Z

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sigh

2006-01-11T17:33:54Z

The last 3 years weren't all bad, but what ami supose to do? It's not last year or the year before right now, and what am I supose to do?

What am I suppose to do? I'm just so tired, soo soo tired. I need a break.........

sometimes...

2006-01-11T05:43:49Z

I wish I could get the nerve to slit my wrists and watch them bleed.....

yea and I'm self absorbed and ridculous...

2006-01-11T05:05:31Z

if you put "becoming un-cynical" as your interests and then post this in someone's journal (see below) obviously your still working on that apparantly.....
(names of others deleted to be polite, though I don't know why I should bother, I'm just CONSIDERATE like that)

muddymtnanjail
2006-01-10 03:27 am UTC (link)
screw everyone else come chill with me!!!!! :-(
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person’s journal’s name deleted
2006-01-10 11:21 pm UTC
i ain't got no time, ho! this is the other problem! life is way too fucking stressful for me to have fun right now. :(
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muddymtnanjail
2006-01-11 02:10 am UTC
You need to move back to JERSEY!!!! :-( Ma isn't any better than jersey and it's COLDER!!!! I kinda understood why you moved their but not really... Their are GREAT schools SOUTH of new jersey ;-) And if you were back here we could work out every day (well every other day lol) and do yoga and all that fun stuff TOGETHER! :-)
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muddymtnanjail

I know sweetie I just get sooooo frustrated I can't be there for you. ::big hugs:: I'm having a bummer couple of days cause yesterday would have been my pop-pop's 87th's birthday and I miss him, so sorry for the rant on your journal, I'm just crying and pissy today. I miss being able to hang with you and forget about life for even just a couple hours.
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now this is just getting ridiculous
name deleted
2006-01-11 04:06 am UTC
YOU are having a bummer couple of days?? who ARE you????
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Re: now this is just getting ridiculous
muddymtnanjail
2006-01-11 04:21 am UTC
THAT FUCKING QUESTION IS EXACTLY WHY YOU SHOULD BUTT THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!!!
YOU DON'T KNOW ME AND YOU DON'T KNOW MY RELATIONSHIP TO SANDHYA, SO WHO ARE YOU?! HUH?! CALL ME SELF ABSORBED AND YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW ME!!!!! JUST BECAUSE I DON'T LIVE IN MASSACHUSETTS DOESN'T MAKE ME ANY LESS THAN YOU. YOU SIR ARE BEING RIDICULOUS! LEAVE ME ALONE AND GO BACK TO JUDGING PEOPLE YOU MIGHT ACTUALLY KNOW
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Re: now this is just getting ridiculous
other name deleted (same jack ass though)
2006-01-11 04:25 am UTC
wait...why are you going apeshit about me being from massachussetts? the states have nothing to do with this conversation, as far as i know...

and i think that's maybe the only time in my life i've been called sir (you should know...or maybe you shouldn't...but anyway, i have a vagina), so thank you for that :)

i'll certainly leave you alone, cuz you're extremely unpleasant, but know that your comments ARE self absorbed, even if YOU are not, and you really ought to watch your mouth around people you call your close friends when they have been through loss of this magnitude

bye now.
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Re: now this is just getting ridiculous
other name deleted (same jack ass though)
2006-01-11 04:26 am UTC
oh yeah, this is my other journal

woops

you're probably confused judging from things

but i've now explained it...so hopefully you get it

okay, bye for real
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name deleted
2006-01-11 03:32 am UTC
wow...not to sound offensive,

but that's a REALLY self-absorbed thing for you to say to sandhya right now

she just suffered a HUGE loss by losing her cousin and obviously needs time to cope with it...maybe you should consider that before posting things like

"screw everyone else and come chill with me"

did you ever stop to consider that maybe there are things more important than YOU that she ought to focus on at this point??
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muddymtnanjail
2006-01-11 03:51 am UTC
well you ARE sounding offensive and KNOWS what I meant by what I said! and you SHOULD BUTT THE FUCK OUT! Maybe just maybe her actually being able to BE with her FAMILY in Jersey might help HER you ever think OF THAT? huh? but she has a job to do so she can't and YOU dragging this conversation out is rubbing that in. I was short and brief because I did not want to drag out a conversation WE'D ALREADY HAD (without you, name deleted) I'm not going to post any more to you, because I don't want to rub salt in fresh wounds. (And hopefully you'll just read this and let it drop)

knows I love her with all my heart and only EVER have her best intentions at heart. She's my oldest and dearest friend and her pain is my pain. I feel horrible that I can't be with her right now to help her deal with a terrible terrible loss. I hate we live so far apart, and think YOU need to take your nose out a place IT DOESN'T belong. I'm sure you understand that and that is why you've made your journal friends only. (which I read when trying to see your profile, to see if I had ever met you or not) Think about that.

you can delete this comment if you want, and hopefully you do know that I only have the best intention for you. I wish I could see you more often than I do, but you know as much as I do "there's always a life to have to back with when the weekends over." Please know that if you need me, really and truly, I'd drive up their in a heartbeat, cause you my oldest and dearest friend and no matter what I have to do your life is more important! I love you darling! (in a non-sexual way... ;-) )
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name deleted
2006-01-11 04:02 am UTC
yo, my journal isn't friends only at all...reread the profile, if you would...i think i pretty clearly state that it's not friends only, actually

also, are YOU 's family? not last time i checked. so why all this pressure for her to visit you? if she thought the best thing was to be with her family, she'd BE there

her pain is your pain? again, you are totally self-absorbed...you can be empathic and sympathize, but to try to sound all high and mighty by taking on her pain which you can't even fathom because you are not her, is really irritating and selfish

i don't think i've met you, but if i had, i would still respond the same way

you sound like one of those people who when their friends suffer subconsciously rework the situation so that you end up getting more attention somehow than they do...this is especially evident when you say things like "her pain is my pain"...you sound to me like an attention whore and you DON'T sound like you give a damn about her well being because as you mentioned before, screw everyone else and have her visit YOU...you you you you

get over yourself and let the girl have some time to herself
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muddymtnanjail
2006-01-10 03:28 am UTC
I'll help you forget about life for awhile
::big schnoogles:: ;-)
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And then at this point I let it drop and didn't comment to the "sir" misunderstand or the fact that SHE had another sn that wasn't friends only... I don't really care and I've made enough an ass out of myself carrying this out on my grieving friends journal. This post is for me to vent if you don't follow it don't worry about it. cause aparrantly I'm too self absorbed to care what you think, that's why I'm crying because my friend's cousin is gone and my grandfather who passed away march's birthday was yesterday... and I still miss him ALOT. but yea so I'm self absorbed I don't know why anyone bothers to be my friends

House tonight...

2006-01-11T03:01:38Z

"You what Woody Allen says about relationships 'Crazy and irrational but we go through it because we need..."
"The curry?"
"yea..."

W00+!!!!

2006-01-08T19:21:05Z

Principles of Bio A
Food marketing System A
Economics of Futures Markets A
Intro to Food and Nutrition A
WOOT!!!!!!!! president's List BABY! 4.0 for the semester!
And my GPA is now 3.023!!!!!!
Now to survive this semester...... AND I'm DONE DONE DONE!!!!

Amen to the indoor smoking ban! Go for the Law!

2006-01-06T23:36:21Z

W00+! okay sorry smokers go outside or smoke at home cause I DON'T WANT YOUR SMOKE IN MY LUNGS! And there is NO non-smoking area in a bar, none that actually counts really. I like to sit at the bar in the middle of the action not in the middle of lung cancer country. bars and resturants WILL get over it. California is doing just fine. Smokers smoking in the same room as a nonsmoker is giving them lung problems when they didn't ask for it. It's inconsiderate and rude. I can't wait till it's enacted!
Ban on indoor smoking moves closer to law
1/5/2006, 4:20 p.m. ET
By JEFFREY GOLD
The Associated Press

TRENTON,N.J. (AP) — A move to ban smoking in restaurants, bars and other indoor public places moved a step closer to becoming law Thursday despite the impassioned pleas of owners of bars and bowling alleys who said it would force many of them to fire employees or close.

The bill that was approved by an Assembly committee, and which has already passed the state Senate, is scheduled for a vote by the full Assembly on Monday, the final day of the legislative session.

"This is a bill that I look forward to signing into law," acting Gov. Richard J. Codey said in a statement.

Afterhearing nearly three hours of sometimes bitter testimony, Assembly Health Committee vice chairman Herb Conaway, a physician, said the benefits and savings from reducing exposure to secondhand smoke "far outweigh" the costs to businesses.

Conaway, D-Burlington, and other committee members conceded the measure was "imperfect" because casino floors would be exempt from the ban, but said they would attempt to remove that exemption in a later bill. Also exempt would be cigar bars and tobacco retailers. Violators would face fines of $250 to $1,000.

"This is a giant step forward," Sen. Loretta Weinberg, D-Bergen, who worked for 10 years on the indoor smoking ban, told the committee.

The casino exemption, sought by some southern New Jersey lawmakers but appalling to bar owners, was part of a compromise to ensure passage last month by the state Senate.

The only member to oppose the bill was Assemblyman Samuel D. Thompson, R-Middlesex and Monmouth, who said two-thirds of the state's restaurants are voluntarily smoke-free, so patrons and employees have options.

"I think the people are entitled to a choice as long as smoking is legal," Thompson said.

The measure had broad support from health groups, including the American Cancer Society, and was strongly endorsed by state Health Commissioner Fred M. Jacobs, a physician and longtime anti-smoking activist.

"Smoking contributes to more diseases and deaths in New Jersey than any other cause," Jacobs said. "Secondhand smoke is the third-leading cause of preventable death in this country. It kills 53,000 nonsmokers nationwide each year, including 1,800 in New Jersey."

He noted that 10 states, including neighboring Delaware and New York, have adopted similar smoking bans, and said New York City bars lost no jobs or revenues.

That was disputed by New Jersey bar owners, who said the New York figures were skewed because they began measurement after the Sept. 11 terrorist attacks, when business was depressed.

Two Atlantic City casinos are short walks from the Irish Pub, just off the Boardwalk, and pub owner Cathy Burke told the committee that the bill would doom her establishment, which predated the gambling halls.

"Essentially, the smokers are being bribed: If you want to smoke, you have to gamble," Burke said.

She said the exemption is a "gross distortion" of the law that allowed casinos to come to Atlantic City, which envisioned them as a tool to revitalize small businesses in the city.

Deborah Dowdell, president of the New Jersey Restaurant Association, suggested that lawmakers should give businesses the option of voluntarily adopting smoke-free policies, and those that don't could be required to limit smoking to enclosed areas with air-cleaning filters.

snip of conversation

2006-01-05T02:26:53Z

Me: "yea I have to meditate on it some more, I already know the answer, but time must be given to delicate matters..."

Well.... SOOOOORRRY... not

2006-01-05T01:15:55Z

Okay when you deny doing something and you don't honestly remember doing something and there's enough evidence to prove otherwise. YOU LIED. Poor memory doesn't mean you didn't lie... It may have been an honestly lie, but one someone accuses you of lying don't get PISSY, YOU DID LIE! Just fucking apologize and things will resolve, holding a grudge will just keep making you look like an ass and you'll be pissy forever until you just let it go.

I"m tired of being tired

2006-01-02T20:41:48Z

I'm tired of carrying the men in my life.
Do it yourself.... Come May 1st I'm flying on my wings keep up if you can, but you WILL NOT be my net. You WILL NOT ensare me. I did not make your bed, I will not lie in your mistakes. I've got my life to live and the people I need in my life are the people who won't hold me down or need me take of them, not yet.
Figure it out or yet again your in a mess of heart ache and struggle.

And my biggest fan is.......

2005-12-31T21:31:43Z

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Wow thanks Paul! ;-P

wow

2005-12-31T21:28:02Z

I have no friends that want to hang out with me, am I that terrible?
Great........

Somethings you just know...

2005-12-31T02:48:34Z

Some people know somethings about themselves...
I think I know... It's kinda kewl but I dunno... ohwell
"Life goes in endless song, and I can't help but singing...."
Life will come and I will live it

My new year's resolutions?

2005-12-29T03:03:44Z

1) Loose weight.... HA.... yea I want to be a size zero.... and shop in the limited.... too....
Okay not loose weight but since my body has decided that being 145 was too much and 129 was much better and drop 10 pounds in four weeks in november and then 2 pounds in the first two weeks in december and then 4 pounds in one week in last week. This week I seem stable soooo I think 129 is the equilibrium.... HA I already met my discovery weight challenge new years resolution before it even started... oops.... Ohwell tehe
2) Quit smoking.... nope don't need to....
hm.......
I resolve next year not to gain weight, smoke, and graduate in May yea I think I can do that lol

Jesus was a born of Joesph and Mary as a boy, died a man for his wonderful belief...

2005-12-25T15:51:29Z

But he was a man no more no less.
But I admire and think he is even more deserving of my love because he was a son of an oridnary man willing to die to change the world for, because he was the son of man not god. He had a large loving family with many step brothers and sisters and full brothers and sisters. I wish I could study his true word he spoke and not the this "Christian" religion stuff they created after his death. I admire you Jesus, Happy Birthday (when ever that was, be it March, April or now)

Merry Merry Birthday Jesus! Happy Holidays Everyone!

Can it be me?

2005-12-23T03:22:21Z

Can it be me?
Am I next... it's about the right time, but is it the right place.
Will I have to die a painful death
Will I have to live in fear
Will I have to die for the ultimate truth
I guess only time will tell I'm not 30 yet
I've got 8 years to sort it out hopefully

Drugs are going to harm your body and so is breathing.....

2005-12-21T18:06:39Z

All the medication I'm on is probably going to shorten my life, but it's going to give me a better quality one til I do die, and I'll take that trade off honestly.
Life each life like it's your last cause your never know it just might be....

Who knows the next time you step of the curb a bus my be waiting to flatten you before you can even know you're dead...
Okay vioxx killed a lot of people but they were crippled with severe arthritis and had a terrible quality of life, up until their end they could do all the things they enjoyed before arthritis, they died happy one would hope. In life we don't make choice, our life is made up of our choices. Thus why the the quote "We must live with the choices we make." is so famous.

Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness....

2005-12-20T23:50:58Z

Okay, so where in there did the founding fathers says "have the right do drive around gving everyone a headache with a party favor muffler?" I think that's down right RUDE and hindering everyone else's pursuit of happiness... I think we should be allowed to shoot any "boi" on "ear shot" with those obnoxious mufflers and sounds systems (cause they usually go together)....
But that's just coming from a chronic migraine sufferer

Okay...

2005-12-17T18:53:33Z

My screen name is SLEEPYANJAIL...
I mirror muddymtnanjail because some of my relative are ree-ree's and don't like change ans REFUSE to use my new sn sleepyanjail. if you are under 35 y/o USE sleepyanjail otherwise YOU are a ree-ree and when you ask me what my email addy is (when you forget) and I say it's my aim sn @gmail.com and YOU SEND IT TO MUDDYMTNANJAIL and it doesn't get to me and you get upset PISS OFF!

USE SLEEPYANJAIL that is all.... thank you..

Sorry I'm pissy, my doctor is apparantly trying to kill my through overdosing me with unnessary medication and I'm having violent mood swings with tingling in my hands and fuzziness in my head.. nice huh?